I still remember the pleasure I used to have when in the winter mornings I would run to the terrace to witness a little hint of green trying to break through the deep, coarse brown of the nurturing, wet soil around. Like an infant cozying up in its mother's lap, looking at the admirers with half closed eyes.

What sense of achievement it used to give me, then a child of 7, is beyond words. Coz it was the seed of watermelon that I had taken 3days ago and had sowed it hoping that it will come out. It was magic for me that the small maroon ellipse turned a tender green beauty.
I still haven't found the replacement of that feeling. So I thought; must we replace every source of enjoyment with an elders' version.
Why cannot we just repeat the same.  So I am :)
RM

You can take that up now...... The particular training or education that you wanted as a child or teenager but could not... May be due to parents' or guardians' pressure or due to financial situation, etc,.

You wanted to pursue life sciences but you were pushed to computer science.

In this case life science was something your heart wanted and you still take a deep breath when you see people talking with great knowledge of life sciences.

What stops you from studying it now. Educate yourself. Your heart does not need to see a certificate from any university. It jus needs to know that you have learnt all that you were inquisitive about. Find out the current syllabus of the subject, educate yourself through books that will help you bridge the knowledge gap that has come due to the developments in all these years.... You can even start with the current secondary school books of your school... That will refresh you and act as a bridge.
You can stand in front of the mirror and say to the person inside proudly that you are a master of the subject now.
And next time you can contribute actively to the discussions rather than taking a sad deep breath.

1. Now you have time which you are spending on FB or fine tuning that presentation on weekends. Do it to enrich yourself

When you suddenly feel lonely and cannot think of anything to do. Just flash back a little and think... You didn't need another person to feel valued when you were in school or college. Revive that sense of pumped up happiness. Remember what made you tick then. You loved songs coz you liked it. There was no joint copyright for liking a particular song... Which you now think of as "Our song" and get all teary eyed and switch it off. It was Your song one day. Just your song... The quality of liking it is yours, personal. You own it in your right.

Just remember that person that is still inside you. That was once walking around like the emperor or empress of your own world.. Without a care in the world.

Live... Breath... Be happy... You are worth everything.. Just look at the mirror and smile #revivals #living

RM :) 

I do

I looked up at the vast azure and asked
Why?
Why am I denied what is so easy for everyone else
Why every time I have to seek like a beggar the opportunity to be all that I can be

He looked down at me and said,

"Daughter, see where you are standing
You say you are a beggar
You who stands in her own Home
You who had once thought of it as a distant, impossible dream
You foolishly ask to lead one home
I have built you to lead a hundred homes
You dream to mother a child
I have filled you with strength to bring up a thousand children
You wish to cradle an infant
I have made you to be a mother of men
You wish to nurture a son or daughter
You are to be a mother to fathers and mothers forgotten
You aspire to spoil a naughty child
You have to show the path to a people gone astray for the want of a mother.

You wish to inculcate civility in your lineage
You have to bring back a generation to the path of righteousness.

You have to bring back the faith in right doing.
You are looking at taming hills.
When I have built you to rule mountains.
How can I oblige Oh daughter?
I have made the world to be your home
You ask me for a hut
How will you fit in
You are not born to beg
You are my princess
You are to rule on my behalf
You are to re-establish my name
You are to take the throne from me
Take charge my daughter"


I bow and say... "I do"

You within me

Not a penny in hand
But the resolve to build a castle

Not a bone  unbroken
But the arrogance of taming the peaks

No future inheritance in sight
But the pride of giving away all

Heart bleeding with a hundred holes
Still the wish to anoint others with the reddened elixir

You gave this.. O Lord
To the meek, the doubtful
You stood beside and made look tall
The soul that was about to be dwarfed by its own shortsightedness

May you rule all the breaths this life has

May you design all the lives this soul has

The celebration of your grace is my pride
Treading the path illuminated by you my good fortune

I believe I owe this post here

I am a believer and I follow Ayn Rand's moral code. I feel God's presence supporting all our right actions and I feel we must act where action is required. Coz God helps those who help themselves :)


Every person is composed of different elements. One cannot reject a person for one particular trait. Since I believe in God, I also believe had she been around in our times, she would have been able to see that the kind of world she stood by is not possible without someone who provides Justice to the right. Who avenged even her. There is always a reason a person is atheist. But that is only till he/she realizes that the Ultimate judge is above. She respected purity, integrity. Henry Rearden sought solace and the words of another person telling him what delivered him, in Francisco d' Anconia. We the Henry Reardens and the Dagny Taggarts of Today seek the same deliverance in people who understand ethics, morals, integrity, honesty and individuality. These are principles which are the foundation of Any Rand's creations such "We the living", " Fountain Head", & "Atlas Shrugged".
Had she come across people who practiced these in their lives through their faith in God's Justice she would have had her moment of seeing.
I respect integrity, individuality and honesty. We do not have separate categories such as Atheist Integrity, Atheist Individuality and Atheist Honesty.
Our God tells us to embrace all in our warm blanket of faith. Sooner or later spirituality catches up. One has no option but to have faith. But certainly faith should be followed by action wherever possible. One cannot expect things to happen on their own where our mental and physical efforts are required. Ayn Rand believed in doing something about things rather than thinking why it can't be done. And don't we say " God helps those who help themselves " :) I hope I have been able to answer your curiosity to some extent. Would love to discuss more on this if you are interested. I can only say the more I read the last 2 novels that I have mentioned, the more I believe in God's poetic justice and that deliverance awaits us all :)

Khwab dikhakar  neend tod dena doston ki fitrat ban gayi
Toote sapne  sajakar dil behlana hamari aadat ban gayi

Unhe sharm na aayi apni  waada khilaafi pe
Unke jhoothe wade pe sawal uthatin aankhen sharmsaar ho gayin