I'll walk again...

It's like the worm trying to walk up a slippery pole... or the drunkard..... we had as our Physical numerical subjects. The worm that climbed 5 inches and slipped 3, how long would it take the worm to reach the top of the pole? .... or the drunkard who walks 6steps and moves back 4, how long would it take the drunkard to fall in the drainage pit some feet away.

This is happening to me. I am trying to get to being the person I want to be. There goes half a day when I am all happy and pumped up but then there goes a whole week when I think that I've lost it. I can't do it. I can't be what I had dreamed to be, since the time I had started understanding, since the first time I had had the taste of being an asset and not a liability to the society. Somewhere down the line I lost the touch. It's like dim cinders... the life in me... it glows with a whiff of goodness, positivity, some good words, a good movie, but then it gets buried in the ashes of negativity.

Sounds like I have given up... but no I haven't.

I saw a person today. A person who meant the world to me for 8 yrs...I don't know I lost the person with all other good things. Yes the person was the goodness in me. I saw the person again a while ago... The person was the goodness in me.... I was but a kid then. I thought to myself... I have grown bigger and my heart has grown too small, complicated and compact for that sort of goodness to work for me any more. But to my relief the person has grown too. The person still stands tall and has created more reasons to be looked upto. If I am lucky, I would move ahead this time. As a kid I tried to be upto that person, now too I can try to be upto that person, and that's more than good enough for me.

God sure does show us light in mysterious ways.

Thanks. You love me as you always have loved me and been with me.

जब देखा सपनों की नदी का दूसरा किनारा

जब देखा सपनों की नदी का दूसरा किनारा

कितनी ख़ूबसूरत सपनों की नदी 

रोज़ बदलते रंग

एक महकते उजाले का वादा

ख़ूबसूरत चेहरे

सपनों का घर

सपनों का नगर

महकती रसोई

खनकते कंगन

नींद में पार की सपनों की नदी

ज़िन्दगी की नाव पर बैठकर

कोई रंग नहीं है

धुंध छटी देखा कोई संग नहीं है

सूनी ज़मीन

सुनसान नगर

अकेली रसोई

कोई सुनने वाला नहीं सो सूने कंगन

मोहब्बत का नाम लिया

और आँखें भर आयीं

बचपन में देखे सपने याद किये

बस जली हुई ख़ाक हाथ आयी

 

 

LOVE - YOU

When I think the word "LOVE"

I think the word "YOU"

Tears, smiles, a warmth beneath the eyelids,
the desire to look at the sky, the desire to drench in the rain,

the desire to sit with folded hands, gazing at God's eyes and praying for every one I know, who has a problem,

looking at the mirror and smiling when the mirror looks beautiful....

All this is "YOU"


Note: It is a comment on "Oh My Darling, You Look Wonderful Tonight...":

She inspired me to write this :). Thanks Beyond Horizon

A Prayer

Dear God,

Please walk down a few steps;
For the smog of chaos is choking us down here;
There are a lot many who are not yet able to see the light,
Your light,
The glaze of your shining blade of justice
and the sparkle of Your golden shield of forgiveness

Amen




God,

A comforting stroke on the forehead,
comforting words to the heart may not reach;
nevertheless the comfort must reach my love.

Amen

Me

Now when I look at the mirror, I want to see me... the "me" I always wanted to be

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. 

He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.

He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for ...You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows.

Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. 

- Psalm 23

This is not my creation, but something that has always given me strength. I just wanted to share